I just want the pain to end. I did everything I was told. I studied hard. Got good grades, went to good schools. Still I cannot seem get a fug_ing job. I am just fuc_ing lonely. Fucked up my social skills for school. Now look at me, begging for help that doesn’t exist because I live in piece of shit world where empathy only exists in fiction.

In retrospect, I don’t even have hope left.

I guess, this is all I have left. This is it.

  • ∟⊔⊤∦∣≶@lemmy.nzEnglish
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    11 months ago

    Yeah dude, life can really really suck sometimes. Sometimes it can suck for quite a while too. But it doesn’t suck forever, and when you get out of it, you’re able to look back and see that it was worth sticking around. It’s impossible to look forwards to see that though. It’s important to realise that. It’s a bleak future until you get there and experience it’s actually not bleak.

    Sure, you don’t have hope. You don’t need to. A better future is coming whether you hope for it or not. It’s inevitable.

    In the meantime, you gotta keep yourself busy. Wallowing only makes it worse. Try to get a minimum wage job, anything to keep you busy. The world sucks, but maybe you’re the one who can make it better for everyone. Try volunteer at a homeless shelter or kitchen.

    I know in this time it’s really hard to motivate yourself. You gotta do it. Do something. Even if you just start walking for several hours a day. Torrent some audiobooks and start walking. Doing will help the feeling.

    Just do it.

    • fckreddit@lemmy.mlOPEnglish
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      11 months ago

      I have been working on a project fairly regularly. It’s there at: github.com/lokitkhemka/jetFramework

      I have been going jogging 4 times a week for 6 months now. It doesn’t help. It never does. I also read fairly regularly, almost every night. Life doesn’t improve in this p.o.s world, despite working your butt off.