I just want the pain to end. I did everything I was told. I studied hard. Got good grades, went to good schools. Still I cannot seem get a fug_ing job. I am just fuc_ing lonely. Fucked up my social skills for school. Now look at me, begging for help that doesn’t exist because I live in piece of shit world where empathy only exists in fiction.

In retrospect, I don’t even have hope left.

I guess, this is all I have left. This is it.

  • The Real King Gordon@lemmy.worldEnglish
    10·
    8 months ago

    I read here the other day from someone feeling bad. They said they didnt want their life to end, only that they wanted life as they know it to end. I think that has powerful meaning that life will not always be like it seems today and that change is always possible.

    • fckreddit@lemmy.mlOPEnglish
      5·
      8 months ago

      Thanks for that. It is true that I want the life as I know it to end. I can’t just figure out how. I am stuck in this limbo, where I can’t seem to change who I am or my circumstances. And I don’t like who I am at all.