Ginawa mo lang ang alam mong tama base sa kaunting alam mo. Sapat man yun o hindi

Tagos na tagos sakin tong sinabi mo na 'to. Recently kasi I’ve been questioning myself baka nga talagang di ko nahandle nang maayos yung relationship. Baka ako talaga yung dahilan why it became chaotic. Pero kung aalisin ko kasi yung acquired knowledge ko ngayon after everything that happened, I think I really just did what I thought was right during those times. I’m slowly coming into terms with it. Kaso the threat of her, committing suicide is becoming a huge roadblock para makapagstart na sana ko magfocus on my own healing. Why is the world so cruel? Antagal ko bago makakuha ng courage to not chase after her tapos biglang may suicide threats naman sa huli. Ang gulo rin kasi she keeps saying na she’s not trying to get me back. Pero at the same time she’s saying na ginagawa nya yun kasi she feels she has no one else already. And that wala naman daw kasing sasagip sa kanya. And that desidido na daw sya. Hirap neto sobra.

New development lang. She’s saying she’s going to commit suicide before blocking me entirely from all her socials. Goes without saying I’m really panicking. What I did is I contacted her close friend. Sabi naman nila pupuntahan daw nila ngayon pero wala pa ko update. I really feel bad. She was indeed the one who broke up with me but the way she spins the story e ako daw yung nang abandon. And the scary part is I think she also believes that imagined scenario. Sobrang fucked up na din talaga. I’m at a loss kasi what if she went through with it? I won’t be able to bear the guilt and baka sumunod nalang din ako bigla.

I finally was set free from an emotionally abusive relationship. She broke up with me and I finally had the courage to not chase after her.

But she’s visibly upset. And I’m afraid of what she’ll do to herself. But at the same time, I wanna start looking after myself and start my healing. But I feel guilty for letting her be. While here I am reconnecting with my friends.

What do I do?

Forgot to mention na wala rin akong PS2. I had PS1 as a kid, and then went straight to PS4 as an adult.

Yung remake ng MGS3 medyo nagdadalawang isip ako if I’m going to buy it lalo’t I don’t want to give Konami money off Kojima’s work.

That being said, I think Konami is really milking the series with this re-release.

Meron bang MGS3 yung dati?

I’m a sucker for MGS and MGS3 and 4 nalang di ko nalalaro sa lahat simply because never ako nagka PS3 and walang PC ports yung 3 and 4.

Sana cheater nalang jowa ko mas madali pa sanang bumitaw. Hindi kagaya ng ganto na araw araw ako nakakatanggap ng verbal at emotional abuse na parang basahan lang ako tas di ko malaman kung bakit.

Ratatat

I just don’t get why you’re suddenly racist just for wanting the casting to stick to the source material character design.

Did you guys retain your username from Reddit?

Nagdadalawang isip ako whether I should just make a new account with a new username. I still like my username that’s why I wanna keep it. But at the same time some people I know in person already knows my Reddit username so my pseudo-anonymity is somehow “compromised”.

How about you guys, did you use your old usernames? And why?

It’s futile because I know most kids nowadays just use multiple profiles. At least one family-friendly account and a separate shitposting account.

Why indeed? I’m interested. Hahaha!

Ligma

I have achieved comedy

Okay since new universe, new personality na rin dapat ako. Kaso I still can’t change myself. Back in Reddit I post a lot about my relationship troubles and I thought kaya ko na tiisin. But please allow me to vent out. I have no support groups. I think my friends hate me din. Literally nowhere to dump my emotional baggage to.

I just hope things will turn out okay. However that may be. I feel really alone. Been mood tracking lately and by the love of god, mas lalo lang naexpose na I always feel down for the last 2 weeks. I’m afraid that I might lose my job if this continues on kasi ang crippling din talaga.

I hope everyone is doing great. I envy you, guys. I wish I can feel genuine happiness again.

I guess communities come and go talaga. And I think this is for the better. Reddit is starting to become “too mainstream” anyway. I sound like an edgelord but it is still my genuine opinion that if a community gets too saturated, the quality also gets worse.

I came from the era of forums pa. Grew up with convergenceforums, moved to symbianize, god-forbidden 4chan, and various other boards for each small community I belong to. Until social media basically killed message boards.

This is just another transition, I hope. While I don’t benefit from 3rd party reddit apps anyway, I still don’t feel good about supporting the platform of a tyrant CEO who doesn’t even value its users, the ones who keep the community running. Fuck spez.