Oh yeah when I was young and had an active untreated personality disorder men loved it. It’s like they want to be tortured. Tbf I also pass on a lot dumber bullshit more now that I’ve gotten treatment and chilled out a little. And I found a dude who’s in almost the same exact boat with bipolar 1 to be stably unstable with. So the idiots really don’t get a lot of chances with me anyway.

Oh idk I moderated Mr armchair psychiatry troll out of here pretty quickly.

Oh I love me a good esoteric ritual. Gives my subconscious a nice open conduit to yell at me through. Tarot cards are my particular jam. I use the astrology aspect mostly for scheduling observances.

Look I don’t even really get into metaphysics for the most part I tend to prefer the more grounded spiritual aspects but a) math / geometry itself is pretty damn grounded and b) the fascists won’t see much of a difference while they’re gunning us down so there’s not much point in me trying to create a divide between us either.

Hi so I’m genuinely an inpatient psychiatric nurse.

OP is maaaybe describing a hallucination, but they’re not reporting paranoia, their language choice doesn’t exhibit disorganization, and they’re not arguing any observable fact, they’re just speculating on a spiritual / metaphyiscal interpretation of the world. Hallucinations themselves even have a wide variety of interpretations outside of the western world that are not pathalogical in nature, and often people in those cultures with similar neuroatypicalities live much longer happier lives compared to those in western society. And even if we do classify it as a hallucination, that doesn’t even mean schizophrenia. They can be singularly spontaneous and never occur again, they can be drug induced whether as part of individual’s healthy or unhealthy use, or in many cases as part of a cultural or spiritual ritual.

Please stop spreading misinformation in my sub about BOTH mental illness AND spirituality or I’m gonna ban you. Or you can feel free to use the block button to block things you don’t personally want to see. That’s what it’s for.

@funkyshoe@piefed.social, as discussed, your exploration of geometric spirituality is very welcome here.

Well that kind of post / question is very much welcome here. My ideal for this space is a combination between genuine exploration of nontraditional (or traditionally heretical) spiritual beliefs and gentle ribbing of traditional / canonical and mainstream religions, particularly the Catholics and other militantly trinitarian or puritanical Christian offshoots. But genuinely exploring a geometric hallucination (or “vision” even), is VERY welcome here.

This was an episode of doctor who.

Dog and cat are probably under the bed and in the closet waiting until I’m asleep to demand to be let out. Hubs and I do sweeps for them when we put each other to bed (he arranges my sleep environment in the morning, I arrange his in the evening). Doesn’t matter when I’m working for the night because he can just sleep with the door open but we need to be able to close the doors when I’m going to bed for the day or when I’m home for the night so I don’t wake him up just by doing things. And they always wake up an hour or so in and decide they NEED. FOOD. RIGHT. NOW. LET. ME. OUT.

I feel like there’s something bigger somewhere in my memory but the thing that occurred to me most recently is when patients fall back asleep while I’m getting their AM bloodwork.

I must also confess to a slight paranoia about such things. I feel like my gender is information neither the government nor the company I buy pants from actually need. Why do they want to know? How is it going to change what they do for me?

call me whatever you want I genuinely don’t care. you can call me he she they or it I genuinely don’t care. the funniest thing a patient called me is a reference to one of my many obvious physical deformities. if you care what I’m called that’s very genuinely a you problem. and honestly the more it bothers people to not know what to call me the funnier it gets.

The secret is to just not care what people call you when you’re not there. Even when I’m in the room and people are talking about me it’s mostly just funny to listen to whatever they come up with.

IT’S PRIDE MONTH

fwiw my understanding was “if people are willing to go black/grey market for it, it must be lucrative and/or a thing people greatly need!” and my answer to THAT question is:

it is very lucrative for the clinic. You’ll get some pocket change, similar to the cut a hooker gets from her pimp.

Now, they are doing something of an important service to you and the client in terms of keeping you out of child support but also out of the child’s life without the consent of the parents (until 16-18, as you said). They’re also attending to some sexual health and genetic concerns. But they’re almost definitely not providing enough benefit to justify their cut. Fertility medicine is verery lucrative business as I understand.

yeah they really don’t seem to understand the importance of holding up the FREE end of the bread and circuses contract

I’m an RN I have basically 0 control over what gets prescribed. last time I called like 3 times begging for opiates for a legit medical problem I got a 1 time dose not even a scheduled or prn. there’s next to literally nothing I can do, no. But even nurses who have worked other specialties have told me they basically go off the poss score as in, if you’re asking and alert and still able to breathe fast enough and it’s within time parameters you get more and if you can’t or they can’t give more you don’t get more. Rating it in number alone is basically just useless.

God numbers are so fucking useless. Especially in psychiatry. The doctor’s not gonna order opiates, they’re just not. It’s for like 30 dumb reasons that mostly boil down to addiction and 20 less dumb reasons that all boil down to “you’re in the wrong place to treat whatever’s causing that.”

So I’ve got Tylenol and Motrin and unless you’ve got stomach bullshit or have a personal preference I’m gonna lead with the Motrin because it’s stronger. So I’m gonna put in the number for whatever the order says that med is supposed to be given for and give it. The Motrin says your pain needs to be a 6 so your pain is gonna be at least a 6. The number is so irrelevant to what’s actually going to happen that tbh it’s kinda in the way.

And in the rare event that I do have an opiate available, your POSS score is way more relevant anyway.

Was watching Fionna and Cake and really getting the feels from Simon Petrikov. Like what if I did just like. Go be mentally ill again. Being a normie with a job isn’t working out great. You know what was great? Hot shower / cold beer. Gonna try therapy one more time but like. Ugh. Please do not bother me with platitudes unless you’ve got $100 to send me monthly to put towards my rent.