I just want the pain to end. I did everything I was told. I studied hard. Got good grades, went to good schools. Still I cannot seem get a fug_ing job. I am just fuc_ing lonely. Fucked up my social skills for school. Now look at me, begging for help that doesn’t exist because I live in piece of shit world where empathy only exists in fiction.
In retrospect, I don’t even have hope left.
I guess, this is all I have left. This is it.
It’s fucked. I dont have a way forward or out, but I can commiserate. The isolation’s all consuming, there’s no underlying community or village despite that being a core human need. It’s like all of the structures of childhood were performances, not preparation for our futures.