(i forgot. Again. Only for three days though, hopefully it isn’t a big deal)

      • EnthusiasticNature94@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
        2·
        14 days ago

        Thank you. I was hard on myself, but the course was upfront that the exams would be challenging on purpose.

        My understanding is that the grades are curved. I still feel bummed about the questions I missed, but from what I’ve heard from my classmates, I probably did relatively better even though I felt like I fell short.

        The stuff I’m working on is too important for me to make mistakes, so I am especially hard on myself. I often feel like I’m the only one solving the problems that I am.

  • otter@lemmy.dbzer0.comEnglish
    5·
    15 days ago

    Eh, could really use a decent LLM counselor app to chat with that isn’t some freemium bait & switch or waifu BS, if I’m being honest. 🤦🏼‍♂️🤷🏼‍♂️😅

  • emberinmoss@sh.itjust.worksEnglish
    4·
    14 days ago

    Not good, Bob. ._. If you are still a young whippersnapper, take care of your mental health, don’t be like me and let it get worse. This just snuck up on me. Now I can barely leave the house and electronic devices scare me. I am completely serious.

      • emberinmoss@sh.itjust.worksEnglish
        2·
        2 days ago

        I’m sorry this was such a heavy post. Thank you for responding. The noise doesn’t bother me, but I have schizoaffective disorder and have been having really bad paranoia with mild auditory hallucinations. I have auditory hallucinations from all sounds, like the noises my body makes, the fan whirring, ambient white noise like the patter of rain. I hear things like people talking or a girl crying. I won’t sugarcoat it, it’s fucked up. But I am more terrified of the silence because I hear things then too. There is no mute button in my head. It makes noise with everything else has quieted. I give schizoaffective disorder a one star review.

        • Flagstaff@programming.devMEnglish
          1·
          1 day ago

          Wow, that is crazy and horrible! Would it help if you played nonstop background music? How long can you handle bossa nova jazz? Haha, there are many such multi-hour tracks on YouTube. I hope there could be some kind of drug you could take to remove them (without otherwise harming yourself, of course).

  • wise_pancake@lemmy.caEnglish
    3·
    15 days ago

    Mostly good, a bit mixed.

    We had a falling out with a friend and it’s just caused my wife a lot of pain. We ended up cancelling a bunch of our plans and I’m kinda bummed about it.

    Work has been good. I’m so happy I switched jobs — it’s challenging and rewarding, I’m way less stressed.

    Had a good but heavy session of therapy this week, it was tough but cathartic. I still feel like my brain tries blocking out those sessions and I have a lot of trouble remembering them in detail.

    • fxomt@lemmy.dbzer0.comOPMEnglish
      3·
      14 days ago

      I’m sorry to hear about your friend, i know how it feels to be cut off from someone you used to love. I’m still glad to hear about your job :D Yeah, i get therapy. I can’t really recall stuff in general, but therapy sessions feel like a complete blind spot for me.

      • wise_pancake@lemmy.caEnglish
        2·
        14 days ago

        Thanks, it was just a relationship that was only going one way. It sucks, but it is what it is, at least there’s no more hurt coming in.

        I have a lot of issues with recall and memory, I think that has a lot to do with stress. Therapy can be stressful, but it’s kinda like going to the gym and exposing myself to these feelings so I’m getting better with them.