I’m Kazakh and this happened in Kazakhstan.

  • ConstipatedWatson@lemmy.world
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    I can’t even begin to understand how you must have felt and feel now.

    I’ve got lots of questions

    (1) How did you free yourself/get freed?

    (2) Why did he want you?

    (3) How did you manage to stay strong?

    I have even more questions, but these are the first three that popped into my mind

    • corrie@lemmy.worldOP
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      1. He let me go, blindfolded me and dropped me off on the city outskirts. Then I asked someone for help. He said he got everything he wanted out of the experience. Basically got bored. 2. I answered in another reply, but he wanted to own another person, like a pet. 3. I accepted it. Then I even became attached to him. As long as I was good he was good to me too.
      • Cyrus Draegur@lemm.ee
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        most people are familiar with “fight or flight” Acute Stress Responses, but when one neither fighting nor fleeing are viable options, there are other modalities that kick in for the sake of one’s survival.

        Namely, Freeze and Fawn: get small, be non-threatening, attempt to appease the assailant.

        You did what you had to in order to get through that, and while nonetheless horrific and brutal, the fact that you came out of this alive is a testament to your resiliency. I wish you could get justice… hell I wish you could get vengeance. But I’m just glad you’re still here at all.