Apologies if this is the wrong place to post this. I’ll delete if so. It’s also rather long. But I’m not sure how to figure out where to go from here.
There are two components to the above.
- I am bad at my job.
I am a bit too slow and am objectively the weakest link of my group of coworkers. No one has told me this, but I know it to be true. Often we will be behind with the workload and I know it’s most likely because of me. It impacts others and it makes it so people have to work extra hours on the weekend. This hurts people.
To help make up for this, I sometimes do extra work off the clock to help my coworkers. But I still feel bad about it.
I don’t want to switch careers. I make very good money at my job and don’t have any other skills. I have been doing this for several years now and cannot see myself improving any further at this point.
We are working on getting an additional employee which should help the workload. However, I will always be the weakest link and it feels bad.
- I complain/vent too much .
This isn’t acceptable, as it hurts other people. Most human beings have empathy. When I do this to people, I can tell that it makes them feel bad. And many people already have enough to worry about in their lives. What right do I have to hurt other people by making them feel bad for me?
This one at least I can work on improving. I need to be able to learn to shut my mouth and stop talking to people in these scenarios. It’s wrong to vent to others. It hurts them. You’re not supposed to do that. You’re not supposed to express yourself that way to others. You’re supposed to keep sadness and frustration inside.
But I have learned to shut my mouth in other scenarios, so there’s some hope I can learn with this one. It’s really hard because I don’t stop and think until after I’ve done it.
How do I go about dealing with this sort of thing? Thanks if you’ve taken the time to get this far. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend.
Please forgive me because after a really shitty day at work I’m going to be direct and say “it’s not you.” I don’t know you or your work situation, but I have worked with so many people that felt this way. I feel this way sometimes too. I think a lot of people on Lemmy will say they feel this way at times. Hell I bet your coworkers feel this sometimes too.
Work sucks. It sucks more than ever too. Most companies are running on skeleton crews. Someone leaves, takes a sick day, or takes PTO, and the whole thing falls apart. You’re still expected to somehow optimize through all of this instead of the company hiring additional people.
Fuck that. You’re awesome because you show up and do your job through all the bullshit. I have worked with people that don’t always put up the best “metrics”, or whatever bullshit measurement your middle manager uses to make themselves look good, but those folks brought other soft skills to the team that made the day better.
You’re human. Vent. Rant. Be upset. Feel your feelings. We all know the current situation sucks and no one can blame you for needing to get it off your chest. More people need to speak up and point out how shitty it is because it’s just getting worse.
Anyway, if you want someone to vent with then DM me and we can complain together, maybe start a riot or something.