we’re back after an absence. unfortunately my week has kicked off with a full day of completely dying from eating too much food, then my body rejecting food–this is not ideal, obviously. also my internal clock is messed up and i’m way behind on some stuff
What inspired you to eat so much? Where I am, portion sizes are absolutely out of control, and it’s reflected in the obesity rate. I literally get an average of full 3 meals out of anything I buy from any restaurant. A chipotle burrito is an entire days worth of calories nearly, and I just don’t understand how anyone over 18 can eat a full one. Kids, I get. I remember being a teenager and ravenous, but that goes away as you get older, so how do people keep eating so much??
unfortunately: an entire childhood (and so far, adulthood) of not consistently eating meals because we’re poor. this… does not endear you to good eating habits, and i’m pretty sure what i actually have at this point is a mild eating disorder that’s simply undiagnosed
That’s as bummer yo. We grew up poor, but had enough family support that food wasn’t ever a problem thankfully. It did give me a healthy hate of the Injustice system though, and a lot of trauma from state interventions into our lives that expresses itself as fight or flight anxiety when confronted. I hope you’re able to get somewhere you feel safe and secure enough that you no longer feel the need to overeat when food is available in case it isn’t later.