Basically the title.
Brief background information
After having tried all sorts of Elvanse (lisdexamfetamine) dosages (30, 50 and 70 mg) and noticing nothing at all, I’ve got prescribed with Medikinet 20 mg (Methylphenidate).
The thing
I don’t think I can properly articulate the experience in English, but I’m going to try anyway.
I noticed that, shortly after taking them, I start to feel as if I was on the verge of having a panic attack (maybe that’s a bit dramatic, IDK if I experienced one of those ever anyway). I become incredibly stressed, but for not apparent reason. Not only that, but I could not rationalize the source of my stress/discomfort.
It is an excruciating feeling. Thankfully, it does not last more than a couple of hours. Also, while going through it, I feel tired, exhausted even.
It is weird, very weird.
Trying to relax is futile, the same goes for breathing exercises, distractions etc…
Does anything here make any sense to you?
P.D: Thanks for reading this incomprehensible wall of text, I am currently in this shity state.
Damn. :( for me methylphenidate caused massive dissociation and anger, so couldn’t take it. Elvanse is much better and reduces my general anxiety a lot as well as mood swings, but evenings are getting harder and harder because of the crash and also as I’m increasing the dose I sleep worse (I fall asleep fine but wake up several times middle of night).
I realized that a big problem for myself is that I subconsciously focus intensely on anxious thoughts. I feel like Howl in Howl’s moving castle where he summons the darkness upon himself. It was really eye opening to read that difficulties with attention can show up like that.
In the beginning with Elvanse I experienced sudden thoughts/feelings about an oncoming panic attack (!ALERT! 10 SECONDS TO PANIC - 10 - 9 - 8…) but for me realizing that conscious re-directing of attention to something else helped. Then the thoughts seemed to go away at some point.
Also the starting dose (30mg) was too big for me and I’ve slowly been going from 15mg to 50mg. I mix it with water and take it over a course of about one hour so it doesn’t strike so hard and crash is not so sudden. It really wasn’t pleasant in the beginning to try to cope with the intense physical feeling it causes, especially with the attention on IS THIS NORMAL, SHOULD I BE FEELING THIS WAY, THIS CAN’T BE RIGHT -thoughts.
Some people take beta-blockers with Elvanse to reduce the physical uneasiness. For me it helps to a certain degree.
But people are different and not all meds work with everyone.