Damn. :( for me methylphenidate caused massive dissociation and anger, so couldn’t take it. Elvanse is much better and reduces my general anxiety a lot as well as mood swings, but evenings are getting harder and harder because of the crash and also as I’m increasing the dose I sleep worse (I fall asleep fine but wake up several times middle of night).

I realized that a big problem for myself is that I subconsciously focus intensely on anxious thoughts. I feel like Howl in Howl’s moving castle where he summons the darkness upon himself. It was really eye opening to read that difficulties with attention can show up like that.

In the beginning with Elvanse I experienced sudden thoughts/feelings about an oncoming panic attack (!ALERT! 10 SECONDS TO PANIC - 10 - 9 - 8…) but for me realizing that conscious re-directing of attention to something else helped. Then the thoughts seemed to go away at some point.

Also the starting dose (30mg) was too big for me and I’ve slowly been going from 15mg to 50mg. I mix it with water and take it over a course of about one hour so it doesn’t strike so hard and crash is not so sudden. It really wasn’t pleasant in the beginning to try to cope with the intense physical feeling it causes, especially with the attention on IS THIS NORMAL, SHOULD I BE FEELING THIS WAY, THIS CAN’T BE RIGHT -thoughts.

Some people take beta-blockers with Elvanse to reduce the physical uneasiness. For me it helps to a certain degree.

But people are different and not all meds work with everyone.

Pretty pic! Here it’s been a grey day and feels like flu is coming. I’ve again ended up overwhelming myself with work. I wish I had better understanding and tools to cope with it. It seems like I only realize it myself when the situation is already pretty bad. :( but good news is that my SO got once again clean results from post-cancer screening!

Turn the digital clocks upside down. Did this accidentally to myself once and when I saw it at night I thought for a moment the universe had disintegrated. Startled pretty bad.

Also: mosquito sounds.

If you want to practice for your ghastly career you can start by Cenafying your loved ones!

Office day which means commuting to another city. It’s been fairly quiet at work so it’s basically a day of sitting and waiting for something to happen.

dzirafé

8,5ish here and I feel like shit. Did you steal my energy?

Shame :( thank you for trying to make room for casual conversation though! I’m always happy to see these posts and glad that you’ve been so active!

manul

What kind of vacuuming are we talking about exactly?

A second balrog already!

Looks like the inner bushing of the bearing, you might be able to tap it off with a flathead screwdriver and a hammer or such. If you do get it off as well as the other bearing (you should replace them both), check the numbers on the bearing or take it with you to a shop. There are a million different sizes and you need the exact one. You can try to use the old bearing as an installation tool to avoid breaking the new ones but it can be tricky as you need to get them sit straight on the hub. You may be able to assemble it by using the axle, old bearing, spacers that are the same diameter or larger than the bearing and axle nuts as a bearing press (put some grease in the cups first), but try to do it one side first and slowly because it’s easy to get it wrong.

LEO’s certainly making faces to the photographer :D

I just came back home from a skating trip on a nearby lake, and I’m quite exhausted now. I recently bought a set of nordic skates, I’ve wanted to get into winter sports more and skating was something I really liked as a kid. It’s really nice when the conditions are good! Now the ice was pretty rough but I’m hoping that this mild winter with little snow means that the conditions for skating will be great in a little while.

Oh no! Better not startle the biscuiteer!

Owlivia! 😭😭😭

Damn right! Or maybe for the night if I must but no longer!

Wouldn’t mind waking up to Bitty asking for scritches!

<starts chewing on the wrap>

We must free Pallet-Stina! She’s innocent!