… I realize sure, some things are good, some aren’t, struggles are here, and I’m even not one of those having it the worst.
But I just wanted to write something down for all those of you that are younger : I can’t, sadly, know when or how it ends, or even if it will at all in certain cases, but you know all this self-criticism, self-flagellation, constant lack of self-confidence?
Well, there may be a time when it all ends. Completely, totally, entirely, and just like that, you realize you’re free from it, probably forever.
It doesn’t make everything ok, doesn’t heal everything and won’t change anything to your denied need for justice and anger against subservience or all the evils people, or you, live through.
But this whole thing about self harming, physically or psychologically? THIS may end. It ended for me like 6 or 7 years ago, probably to never come back. Nothing particular happened, you know. Stuff just healed. It took time but it did happen in the end.
And I dearly wish it will for you all too.
Cheers and take care.
Amen! 46 and happy to confirm, although for me the break point was at 30 when my first child was born. An earlier breakthru was around 27 when doing my second outing of zen meditation and realising that my thoughts are not me, but more like the wind on my face, they come and go.
So my 5 euro-cents on this: become a parent or meditate to accelerate the process :)