I don’t understand her hate. I don’t understand how someone could have access to the best this world has to offer and - in exchange - uses their time and power to injure people who have done nothing to them. If I had more than $10mil, you’d never hear from me again. I’d be in a different country every month. Staying at hotels and eating good food. I’d probably only use my phone to map to the nearest train station. I can’t even fathom wasting my money and time trying to physically injure people who are doing nothing but existing. The biggest insult to injury is that she’s a children’s book author. Hell, Harry Potter ironically was my escape as a kid. Dreaming of a world where I could be anything through the power of magic.

I know everything I’ve said has been addressed ad nauseam, but I just truly can’t wrap my head around this vitriolic, vile, behavior.

Thanks! Yes while I’m waiting for my shipment, I’m going to spend time figuring that all out. I’ll reach out to you if I hit a wall in my understanding.

Thanks for your help! I ended up picking monotherapy and going on the matrix subreddit to double check my plans for DIY HRT.

I can’t join the Matrix server. When I try registering with the server chat.blahaj.zone and blahaj-20250508 I just get a 500 Internal Server Error response from the server. I tried different username/password combinations in case there was an issue with special characters, but nothing seemed to change. Instead I registered with matrix.org and was able to get accepted. I’m learning how to use Matrix, but I’m getting the hang of it a bit. I’ll try and find the HRT room :)

Are you comfortable describing where you source your Estradiol Enanthate and anti-androgens? I am looking at Open Gate Labs since they ship from the US and I live in the US. But I can’t find any sources that are selling Bicalutamide. Each seller is out of stock or saying they aren’t shipping due to the Trump tariffs. I don’t really want to go on Spiro since they say it’s weaker and then the side effects of Cyproterone acetate scare the heck out of me (e.g., benign brain tumors).

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In my experience, my wife flip flops a bit between accepting and feeling sad about it. Sometimes our conversations are similar to yours: practical, forward thinking, assuming I’ll transition, etc. Other times, our conversations are more reflective, sadder, concerned about the future, uncertain about my transition, etc. We’ve decided to put a pause on conversations about it. As you can see from my post history, I’m still leaning towards HRT, but I’m running into a lot of insurance blockers that make it difficult. I’m now considering the DIY route, but it’s kinda complicated looking. Not too bad, but it requires learning a lot of stuff I was hoping my doctors would figure out for me.

I hope your journey goes well! I’ll probably be on this community fairly frequently over the coming months.

Thanks for the guide. It sounds like it’s mostly a cost based issue then? The DIY route seems a bit more expensive than insurance, but it’s fairly reasonable.

How do you handle injections? I feel like it’d be super hard to put a needle in me. I’ve never done something like that before.

Edit I watched a video on how to do it. Doesn’t actually look too bad. I hate needles, but for some reason the 45deg. angle and pinching the skin made it seem less daunting.

That’s fair. I can try giving them a call, but most of my experience on UHC phone trees end up frustrating and unhelpful.

Kahless in Payless 😎

I just finished the first climb of the mountain. Awesome game. So stressful though lol

It’s true you know.

Sorry that I’m late to the party. My egg cracked last month. 31 MTF and I’m also figuring things out. My wife is also cis and she’s also struggling to support me. I’ve been all over the emotional map these days. I have a daughter, but she’s only a baby so maybe that’s a bit easier to deal with. I’m not really through this journey so I’m not much help in terms of advice, but you’re definitely not alone.

Thanks that’s helpful as well! I’ll check it out

This is probably what I should do. I didn’t consider it because my PC was kind of weird for me. I didn’t enjoy talking with him and he kind of had some less-than-progressive takes. I’m going to find a new PC and setup an appointment with them. Maybe I can even do a virtual visit.

It doesn’t really address those deeper questions about fertility though. I feel like I need a chart or something that shows what meds impact fertility, how quickly, how likely, etc.

Ok I played for 90min so far and Celeste is hard! It’s fun though

Yup. Much like Mr. Rogers who put his feet in a kiddie pool with a black man (I believe it was the mail man). Children’s programming has always been empathetic and inclusive.

Absolutely