… and I wonder why I’m no longer drinking.
I stopped because I only wanted more after my first. This was a problem as me and my friends were doing this every every in the weekend.
Stopping with drinking was a huge relief as I no longer suffered from crippling hangovers.
This is now years ago and my life, and the people around me, has changed. Everyone calmed down with the drinks and is no longer going on benders. People now drink casually as “normal” people do.
I wonder if I could do it because I do miss the taste of the drinks and slight buzz. On the other hand I feel blessed to have discovered this secret power of a life without alcohol and hangovers.
Why bother with it though? It does not enhance life, it only brings destruction.
For me drugs, in moderation, do enhance life. A beautiful mushroom trip opening my mind to be able to see new patterns. Losing my sense of self in a ketamine trip was also a profound experience in realizing a lot of how we think is a construct and not inherently “real”.
The world, for me, is not so black and white.
That’s why I was playing with the thought of having a drink again. Now that the holidays are over the urge has lessened and I can continue my life of not drinking.