Here’s the closest I’ve got.

Priest - History In Black

Priest is an electronic music project originally formed by ex-members of the hugely popular band Ghost. I’d call this Darkwave, but the label doesn’t matter, it’s depeche mode-y and don’t let the gimp mask put you off, I believe the song is very sincere.

I can't stop, it's too late, it pours out, it's my fate
My legacy in black
Looking in to my eyes, see the things i despise
My soul is tainted black

I traveled with the enemy, i thought it was my destiny
I'm free of all the lunacy
I never want it back, my history in black

Silent screams longing voice, violent dreams, ringing noise
My memory is black
It's not a mask, it's my skin
Please don't ask where i've been
My heart is painted black

I traveled with the enemy, i thought it was my destiny
I'm free of all the lunacy
I'm never want it back, my history in black

I escaped from the cage inside

I traveled with the enemy, i thought it was my destiny
I'm free of all the lunacy
I never want it back, my history in black
My history in black

Swans - Song for Dead Time

So bury your trust beneath the ground with me, dear

And lay your loneliness down for the sun to burn

To sand…