Well, it has yet to come alive. No worries.
edit: “alexithymia”

btw. i believe that i am actually quite sure about my inner states, just that i don’t want to boil it down to simple verbal language because that doesn’t fit it. I would need to use a different language. Give me the right music and i will dance it, or let me get my drum and i will drum it!

Uh why do you ask? … Well, it’s not so easy to answer and there’s a word for that … i was just walking along, no better my body was auto-walking because my mind which is not currently under my control is, how do i explain that, kind of dreaming, so, i was just full with this story and your question is disturbing that now. Where am i. You know … no you don’t, well it’s about my idea how to make that thing better, that new internet community thing i’m currently doing excessively, you must know that often i do things excessively … i have told you before but you are probably ignorant … but i should not be so judgemental i know that frustrates me, so i should actually feel bad, ah well. And this new thing is just giving me so much delightful input, aehm i mean my mind not i but that is a whole different story about who i am actually, … that i have actually forgotten to sleep last night, so i’m actually not so well but what word is there for it … Anyway, yeah, in order to tell you how i’m doing i should explain how it came to this new thing. That was when Reddit went nuts, you know, just like they always do in this sick system, but that is a whole other story. And you probably don’t know what Reddit is, but that doesn’t matter so much anymore, let’s just call it … what was the word for that. It’s not a chatroom but lots of people there. Well, actually with Reddit one could not be so sure anymore because it was infested by machines, too, so that all makes this new place so exciting, and now there’s a lot of frustration going on with the long-time members, which i’m not actually a part of, so i can as well just watch their fighting, yes a lot of fighting vibes, and a lot of them, nah ok maybe it’s still just a miniscule amount of people but it’s probably the smarter ones which is a good thing, they move over to this new thing, and there is some chaos. And this is better because it’s supposed to be community made and all, and no corporate shit, and real people, and all is friendly, and yea now i’m stuffing my mind, i mean my mind is stuffing itself by looking at the little screen all day, with all the exciting stuff, and it makes me feel cozy at home somehow although i know it’s all virtual. Yea but i’ve been sleepless and i forgot to eat, so i should be miserable, and maybe i am because i neglect myself, oh man. … But now that i have just stood there avoiding to look in your face for … five seconds, and you are probably not interested in that stuff anyway, i should perhaps say something …

“Yea so-so … a bit tired but ok. … And maybe dehydrated.”

[should i really post this now? maybe i should put a smiley at the end so that they know i’m trying to be funny about my fractal mind LOL]

🤗 [Hey i have discovered the emojis but there is no simple smiley … ah leave it be, just tap Reply]