• Alice@beehaw.org
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    1 day ago

    Rough. I lost muscle mass over the holidays due to being swamped with work as well as on call to help with a family crisis. I’ve been trying to get back to the gym, but due to the snowstorm I only managed two days this past week. My dumb ass kept driving down there at 5:30am and they’d be closed 🤦 There’s supposed to be another storm coming up, too.

    In therapy for relationship issues but I don’t know if it’s going well. My therapist claims I’m very self aware and I’m not asking for too much, but I don’t think that can be true because people in my life keep having these horrific meltdowns at me.

    I haven’t talked to my friend in two weeks because I was going to ask my therapist how to approach him but we ran out of time. I should probably let him go but I hate to end on a bad note after everything we’ve done together.

    Starting this week off with a hike with a new group, not sure if I really want to meet people ever again but I already RSVP’d so let’s go.

    ETA hike went well and I was getting to know everyone and then on the fourth mile they started joking about how liberals moving to our area won’t have any friends. I’m much further left than liberal 🙃 my therapist told me to try to make friends but I’m done, this is a waste of time

    • stiephelando@discuss.tchncs.de
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      18 hours ago

      Mate, you’re working out and going to therapy so you’re doing insanely well by my standards. Keep in mind that you can change therapists if they’re not a great fit for you.

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        13 hours ago

        Thanks, that’s very encouraging ❤️ the gym is a nice hobby but I don’t think it’s the only or even the best route to self improvement, like for instance I feel the same way when people talk about reading regularly or making space for friends and partners.

        Unfortunately therapist choices are actually pretty limited if I want one that’s paid for by my job. I went through the list and she was the only one who fit into my availability. I could still look elsewhere and get one mostly paid for by insurance ofc but it means seeing them less frequently.

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        2 days ago

        Yeah, I really should. I mainly go to the gym because it’s hard to focus at home, especially with the cutest cat in the world always wanting on my lap.