Pretty often lately it’ll happen to me that I’ll look bewildered at reality and just feel like something, even though I can’t quite tell what, is wrong. Wrong as in, things just aren’t going the way they’re supposed to. You think it’s going…fine enough, but then you’ll feel like you’re fricked. Either you messed something up or it was out of your control but either way something went horribly wrong and you can do absolutely nothing about it. So you’re there sitting waiting for the worst to occur just so you can simply accuse it to be the reason for your feeling and call it a day and forget about it. It’s that, or it’s feeling like something with reality itself feels off, almost dreamlike. Though it’s different from derealization. I’m really challenged as I lack the vocabulary to express it all well.
For someone with mental health challenges I think that’s ‘normal’. I think emotional states like dread, despair and others that don’t fit with what’s happening in front of you can be part of the symptoms. This happens to me more when I’m more stressed over a prolonged period, or other triggers generally cause my mental health to decline.
Does it go the other way too, unusual episodes of excitability, joy etc?
it does. it makes sense, but i was surprised cause this never occurred to me