Out of browsing autism issues, and out of online for the day, actually. I like this community but when 80% of memes fit to me, i start to feel more handicapped and it’s draining. I wish i could meet certain people in person. Online “community” is just not real enough and can make feel lonely.
Edit: some context … This particular meme story here talks about hiding one’s idiosyncrasies, as part of what we call masking. I started discovering my own neurodiversity the classic way (which is also the hard way) – by having an autistic burn-out. Not only is this kind of masking very demanding (i was unconsciously always on alert for “danger” of meeting strangers), but it’s also stealing the joy from living. I could choose between dreaming along freely but lonely, or being among people but constantly watching my behaviour … so long until all energy was drained and i couldn’t do it anymore. Fortunately for me, a certain miss Greta Thunberg was in the news in those days, and she gave it all a name …
This meme makes me sad and quite anxious. It reminds me that i’m still doing that stupid thing far too much … “am i acting weird? what will the others think?” … damn!
Out of browsing autism issues, and out of online for the day, actually. I like this community but when 80% of memes fit to me, i start to feel more handicapped and it’s draining. I wish i could meet certain people in person. Online “community” is just not real enough and can make feel lonely.
Edit: some context … This particular meme story here talks about hiding one’s idiosyncrasies, as part of what we call masking. I started discovering my own neurodiversity the classic way (which is also the hard way) – by having an autistic burn-out. Not only is this kind of masking very demanding (i was unconsciously always on alert for “danger” of meeting strangers), but it’s also stealing the joy from living. I could choose between dreaming along freely but lonely, or being among people but constantly watching my behaviour … so long until all energy was drained and i couldn’t do it anymore. Fortunately for me, a certain miss Greta Thunberg was in the news in those days, and she gave it all a name …
This meme makes me sad and quite anxious. It reminds me that i’m still doing that stupid thing far too much … “am i acting weird? what will the others think?” … damn!